So, I figured we need to start at the beginning if we are going to get anywhere. 😉 Makes sense, right?!? Of course it does!
This blog will be used as a way to share, and hopefully connect, with others also battling anxiety/panic. So of course that means I can’t give out all the good stuff in the first post. So stick around. It may not always be fun, or entertaining, but it will always be real.
So, here is a bit about me…I’ll even bullet-point it to keep it semi-entertaining:
- 32 years young
- 21 years saved by Christ
- 16 years with my hubs
- 13 year old daughter
- 12 year old cat
- 11 years with anxiety
- 10 months at home
- 4 year old cat
- 2 year old dog = best friend
- 1 daily medication
- 1 “emergency” medication
- handful of people who know the truth
So that is me in a nutshell…ish.
I didn’t have the best childhood. Of course, I didn’t have the worst childhood either. I grew up with a lack of control and thus, I have been trying to be in control ever since. That in and of itself will cause you to break down. There are so many things out of our control. And I had to learn how to deal with them. And let them go. But more on that later.
I am the product of 4 step-dads (and multiple live-in boyfriends), 1 step-mom, 3 half-siblings, 10 step-siblings, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, anorexia, depression, anxiety, a parent with untreated mental illness (possible BPD or schizophrenia) and 49 moves.
I am also the product of a God who loves me, an amazing husband who sacrifices so much for me, a wonderfully gifted daughter, an extended family who would do anything for me, and friends who have stood by my side when I have nothing to give.
I choose to focus on the latter and forget the past. Although, that is what has gotten me into trouble and placed me in the predicament I am in today. Again, I will get more into that later.
I am just your average gal! Christian. Wife. Mother. Friend. Auntie. Daughter.
But I have a secret that most people who know me, don’t know. And it is embarrassing and frightening and frustrating and draining. But I am learning to overcome my struggles and part of that is sharing my story with you.
Keep Fighting!
August 21, 2015 at 1:24 pm
I think you’re being very strong. Anxiety is difficult to deal with. Working on blog about it should help. Do you know other people with problems similar to yours? Talking with other people face to face may also help. I’m sure there is a support group for anxiety, out there.
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August 21, 2015 at 1:42 pm
Thank you! I know a couple other people who have also dealt with anxiety, but not to the extent that I have been lately. It does help to talk with others who have had a panic attack since they “get it”. Thank you for your encouragement!
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August 21, 2015 at 6:23 pm
I think blogging about it will really help you. Starting my blog made me feel amazing and when i started receiving amazing feedback from people it made me feel even better
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August 22, 2015 at 9:21 am
Thank you! I feel like I am over fighting this alone. Time to share!
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